Yet again I’ve left an assignment until the very last minute and, while granted it’s an assignment that can be done in the four hours I’ve given myself to do it, it doesn’t change the fact that I had all day yesterday off work for the first Saturday in ages, and instead of finishing it off so that I could get home from an 8 hour shift today and have a bit of a max chill, I got drunk and did nothing of any real importance instead. Now I’m going to have to stay up to finish it before 11:59pm and I just really, really need to stop doing this. I got my exam timetable yesterday so have a definitive date that I’ll be finished this semester and 5 more weeks. 5 more weeks, two more assignments after this and the final exam. I’m sick of being frustrated with myself, so my goals for this week which just so happens to also be mid-semester break is:
- start on my final essay for journalism and get it done by the end of next week;
- get the house in order, I am so tired of everything being cluttered, including my head;
- find a routine again, sitting in bed until midday, leaving assignments until the last minute, getting drunk instead of completing responsibilities, eating crap and not actively seeking out experiences that force me to evolve and grow is bullshit and I’m angry for allowing myself to get to this point, and;
- work on developing a more positive mindset towards work. I am so incredibly lucky to have such a good paying job that gives me as many hours as I need. Working ~30 hours a week on top of everything else is exhausting, yes, but I should be grateful that I have the opportunity to be so financially comfortable in a job where I’m surrounded by awesome colleagues that make even the shittiest of customers bearable
Time to kick my own arse back into gear, because this isn’t working for me.